Ephesians 1:15 - 23

Hi baby,

I just got done reading and the verse that stood out to me tonight was "This is the same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead and seated him in the place of honor at God's right hand in the heavenly realms."

I know that I have said to you before that Christ rising from the dead is something that I can 100% fully believe in, no doubts, no curiosity. I just believe in it. The resurrection is so real for me and I can't truly tell you why. It's not because as a kid the catholic church brain washed it into me :) I just 100% whole heartedly believe. I always have. But it made me think....why are there some other things that do raise my curiosity? Why is it sometimes that I feel so alone when truly God is right there beside me? Why do I get so mad that God put me in the situation of being hurt by someone that I fully trusted? So many why's and so little time to analyze to try and find the answers. But the question that made this verse pop out to me is why can't I take that same belief and put it into all the "why's"? I believe with no doubt that Jesus came to this Earth, died on a cross for our sins, was buried and rose again. That God had the power to do something so INCREDIBLE like that. I read that verse and thought YEAH, I believe that. So why can't I take that strength of belief and rule out any curiosity, push away the loneliness and feel God's warmth around me, to see that there is a reason for why we are in the situation that we are in and to take James 1:2-4 to know that God is giving me this to help me grow and come closer to Him.

I don't know why but I can pray that I can take that power of belief and put it into action in our marriage and in life.

Dear God,

Thank you for this opportunity of "trouble". I pray that you can give me the strength to grow from it, to learn from it and to become closer to you and Bjorn. Thank you for Bjorn Lord. I sometimes don't thank you enough for him. Help me to be the wife that he needs me to be in order for him to grow closer to you and me. Lord help me to take the belief that I have, that strength and power and to throw it in the way of anything that makes me doubt you, doubt Bjorn or doubt myself. Lord you are an amazing God and I feel so blessed to know what type of heavenly Father that we believe in, whole heartedly.

Amen!

Love you poops and am missing you tonight. Travel home safe so that we can be together.

Jen ;)